It's Today or Never?

It's today or never right? The world looks so different, things I thought would always be important to me .....just aren't anymore. All of my priorities have shifted and for the first time in my life I truly had to "take care of"....myself. I just don't think I really understood what "self-care" meant for and to ME. So wow let me catch up anyone who has followed me in the past or any new folks along for the journey. I retired from the military after 22 years and decided to transition into my new chapter prescription medicine free. Further I stepped boldly into utilizing Cannabis and CBD as my chosen way to medicate my body. I retired 100% disabled veteran who suffers from PTSD and chronic pain.

I transitioned roughly and just couldn't seem to get my footing....on the inside if you know what I mean! I started this BLOG and it was my intentions to put it all down here in black and white! I felt at times like a big ole fraud because as we moved into 2020.....I cracked a bit. I gotta tell y'all it took me a minute to just get my center back or at least feel like giving a Shit about it! You know it was taking me all I had and then some to get my black behind out of the bed. Y'all on top of all that fuckery we finalized our plans to relocate from Washington to Arizona. So I sucked a lot of shit inside and did what I do best....adapted and drove on. I packed a house, sold a house and prepared for a move.

I want to say I learned so much about myself during the trip, or tell you it was the best experience EVER.....it wasn't and I can't say it. I struggled with expressing my feelings of failure, inadequateness and sadness. I felt like I couldn't truly tell my family what I was going through because the world was so crazy already! I am so use to pushing "me" aside to be strong and present for everyone else. I guess I have always been the fixer or the problem solver, except for myself. So I gotta finish how I started, it's taken me a minute to get back in gear but today was better than most. I'm gonna keep on keeping on, Oh and I landed very nicely here in Sierra Vista AZ. I am building a business and a safe space for folks like me! It's gonna take time, energy and a lot of patience....but I'm here for it. Y'all stay safe out there and REMEMBER one day at a time! It's a journey

Me faking it by the Pool😂

Y'all come check me out anytime!

Its a journey

Rosezett